| more on my mind !?!?!? |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|03:16 pm] |
Yess im here to leave another Blog.. 2 in less than a month.. WOW!! lol... i have been doing alot of thinking lately.. and alot of praying...
though i am NOt perfect nor to i pertray myself as that.. i do have to say that i am really trying to get back on track.. God wont leave me alone till i do.. i have met alot of wonderful people recently..... and i would not change that for nothing...
its nice to have people that believe in you.. people that support you and how you feel and think... and i seem to find them time to time...
My "messiah" complex tends to try to get ahold of me.. and well i have to learn how to let go and LET GOD!!! if i could only do that sometimes.. things would be easier!!!! lol its ok.. i am spending alot more time in prayer than i had been...its hard to get back in the grove..
i look back on my life i try soo hard in my life Not to hurt some one and it SEEMS like sometimes i do.. and well i DONT WANT TO nor have i intended too!! i care about people and try my hardest to help and support them..and i am as honest as they come if any of you who know me know that.. i would not lie nor try to diseave anyone... AND PLEASE DON’T FORGET THAT….
I guess I am kinda ranting about things on my mind.. but I do want to say this.. people come in our lives for a reason.. and we must all know that we have to take that and use it to help us grow .. we ALL are on a journey.. where it takes us and what we do with things is all up to us…
I know for myself I want what God has for more.. nothing more and nothing less.. I am tired of looking everywhere but to Him..i know this sounds all “religious” but its my heart…
God has blessed me with a heart for people.. and its time I pray and seek him more… I thank GOD FOR EVERYONE I HAVE MET!!!...
More to come……
Ps I hope all this made since.. lol |
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| yay my second entry 5+ months later lol |
[Mar. 20th, 2006|05:01 pm] |
It’s been a long hard few months here in Atlanta.. But i'm a survivor... I like it here.. I want to make sure this is where I am supposed to be... I’m praying and seeking God on this... I have met some great people.. And some not soo great.. Some made good friends some well just weren’t meant to be... I have been able to stand by some great friends help them and even encourage them.. As God has soo graciously aloud me to do... and I Love that I can be a part of peoples lives... it’s kinda funny I tend to take this "superman" nick name too far sometime.. It never fails I end up hearing the old song some girl sang... " I am a supergirl here to save the world... but who can save me" yesterday I really felt like God said to me yes Jason you are called to be a "superman" but you are not there savior I am... you are to bring them to safety... and take them to me and where they need to be.. so as pastor said yesterday we tend to get this "messiah" complex" loll yepp those of you who have known me for years will tell u that I can get that way.... its ok we all come along way in our lives.. That is part of maturing and even growing up...as the old southern gospel song that the Happy Goodmans sang... * I wouldn’t take NOTHING for my journey now* and that is soo true.. Everything i have done and gone through in my life. has helped me make me who I am today... both good and bad... and believe me I have SCREWED UP my share in life.... some one told me the other day that i was soo "strong" well yea i am but i have my weaknesses too.. I am HUMAN.. lol even superman was human... i am Glad that i could be apart of all of your lives... those you i know personally and even those i have been able to encourage even just online... i just wanted to take a min to tell you all you are in my prayers and my heart... and i hope and pray God would bless you and protect you all... * sorry to those of you who aren’t spiritual just saying what’s on my heart* yes I am a Superboi here to save the world but who’s gonna save me… only God can.. Yes I said it heheh God can.. lol that is how I feel now… I actually am feeling soo good today…. I am letting go and letting God as my dad used to say… I found a very nice church here in town… I went the people are great and the presence of God was soo there yesterday… Justin went with me.. He liked it too!!! That made me happy too! Soo much to say… ill make another entry soon! Hugs love you all!!!! |
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| Good BYE Albany!!!!! |
[Oct. 14th, 2005|01:19 pm] |
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GOOD BYE ALBANY!!!! Here I am writing in my journal for the first time.. I thought I would make is a Special one... its my last nite in Albany and I wanted to say Good bye to you all.. It's kinda funny how a year ago I never heard of this city... and Fate Brought me here.. I have met some wonderful people and some Not soo wonderful... that is ok... that is part of life... I look back on the past 6 months... its been great... 2 jobs... one was hell and another screwed me over and not the way I like it.. LOL and my friendships all started off with a Girl Named Brittany... she came in one day as she did soo many times to BAM.. I remember seeing all the "mall rats" come in day after day... some were hot some were freaky and some were just plain crazy... lol *which its all good* I remember the nite Brittany ordered a Rice crispy treat I was working at Joe mugs that nite..... I warmed it up for her.. and I said to myself.. ya know I better say hi.. now is my chance I had not really made too many friends the one friend I did make moved to savannah.. and well he has disappeared off the face of the earth.. *now that is another story in its self* lol shoo I said hi to Brittany and Becky.. I remember I told Becky to order this book she wanted.. and Brittany and I started to talk...... when she told me she was 16 I though it was gonna SHIT!!! loll I could not believe it... and who would had thought because she thought I was the Kewlest gay guy in Albany... I would had made all these friends.. one by one the mall rats said hi added me to myspace and BAM!!!! here I am.... THANK YOU BRITTANY!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I could make this entry go on and on but im sure you all are tired of reading my BAD grammar and even worse my punctuation and NO separate paragraphs..... *Adam is probably freaking out about that by now* lol hugs ................. I am moving to Kennesaw tomorrow.... im excited nervous and even anxious... new things new people.. im sure I will do Fine With God and my friends ill make it... I will miss Cliff soo much over 2 years of living together his B*tching about my messiness and his anal tenancies *which have improved* he has been the best thing that ever has happened to me in my life.....faithful loving caring... and even protective... I know that this is a new chapter in my life and we will miss each other but we will surely always be best friends and will always be here for each other.. *tear* I wish him ell with Shane I hope he remains happy and hope Shane treats him right.. if not ill have to call the momma mophia... lol well I am about to go get Little Michael *one of the most wonderful guys in the world I LOVE HIM!!!! and again that is a whole other story!!!! heeheh who would have thought ..... lol well I will be keeping in touch I LOVE you all ...
Good Nite Good Bye and God Bless Albany.... |
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